Lately I've been fighting off the urge to cut almost all the time. I just feel like cut cut cut all fucking day. I haven't cut near as much as I've been tempted to, but I'm still cutting several times a week now. It's getting really out of hand. I'm always nervous and jittery, too. I'm trying to get better, but I seem to be falling apart more. I need to stop this shit, but I just can't. I don't even know why I bother cutting anymore, it's not as if I have any unscarred skin left anymore. At least not on my arms or legs. I don't know what to do. I'm just losing it. I fuck everything up. I hate me.

Just look at me. I'm here again, whine whine whine. Can't I ever do anything other than torment myself than whine about me tormenting myself. What the fuck?!?!