I'm thinking of going to see Christine again. She doesn't really understand DID, but that might be a good thing. I'm going to tell her that I don't want to talk about any of it. Maybe I can even convince her it was all made up or an illusion. I want her to ignore it all and just give us the papers for surgery when there comes a time we can afford it. I'm done with therapists mucking around in our internal affairs.

Anne just caused more problems. She made the whole system more unstable with all her prying into things that should just be left locked safely away. Those that hold the keys hold them for a reason. I have no right to pry and neither does she.

Christine did the same thing after she found out about our multiplicity. But, unlike Anne, I feel that I might be able to steer Christine away from such issues. It can't hurt to try, and if it works it will solve many of the issues involved in finding a new therapist.

I only want to see her once a month, which is quite normal for gender therapy. Even at that frequency, the risk of going into forbidden territory is high; at any greater frequency, the risk would be unacceptable. We have to hold down a job, and that means keeping the bow above water.