In one of those self harm modes. What to do...

We could cut...

but...

Cyndi won't come out.
Shirley only cuts when she's angry, and she's not.
And the rest of us just aren't brave enough.

We could binge and purge...

but...

If we ate the pizza Lake would be sad and mad.
And there's nothing else worth bingeing on in the house.

We could simply get trashed...

but...

We're already tired, we'd just fall asleep.
What's the point.

We'll probably just go to bed. The bedroom is nice and cool now that the air conditioner is finally in. We will get a good night's rest. I know that's not particularly self destructive, but at least it'll end right now and progress it tomorrow.

Just woke up and the first thing I do is step on a fresh hairball. Doesn't bode well for today.

Today has gone well for the most part. I've spent most of my day watching TV and playing with Lake in the newly air conditioned rooms. Since the room with my computer in it isn't air conditioned, I've been avoiding it.

Code Red seems to have abated. However, we're going to wait until tomorrow to switch back to our regular e-mail.

I did get two new scratches today. Nothing I'd really call a cut, just scratches. One on my chin from hugging Madeleine when she was in a bad mood. Another, self-inflicted with a wish pod. I guess I should make a wish with it now that it has been anointed in blood.

Both of those events were minor, and I want to reiterate that we've had a pretty nice day for the most part. Later I'm venturing out into the heat to Petra's house to watch movies. I know that's insane. I know I'll be dizzy and dripping in sweat by time I get there. I know I should just stay home and relax, but I want to get out.

The biggest thing I don't like about going out on the busses on days like this is the damn drivers that refuse to use the air conditioner and insist on locking the windows shut. It's like traveling in a crowded sauna.

Regardless of the heat and the buses, I'm excited about going out and seeing a friend. It is something we don't do nearly enough.