We've been purging everyday lately. Mostly me and Shirley. We had been doing it just once or twice a week. The increase has me a bit concerned, as I feel we may be starting to lose control of it again. The last time we lost control of it, we ended up with some pretty bad reflux problems. I don't really want this, there just seems no way to keep control.

Woke up 45 minutes ago and I'm still tired. I'm tempted to just take my meds and go back to bed for a little while. But, I think I'm going to instead have coffee and stay up, as I've got quite a bit to do today.

We went to our pdoc's office today, but she had already moved out. I was supposed to see her today. I don't know what to do. I have no idea how to get in touch with her. I feel so ditched. I want to binge and purge. I want to harm myself. Lake won't let me. I'm sad. - Shirley