This terrifies me.

Got really freaked out last night. Took 200mg of Seroquel and 1mg of Lorazepam in order to calm down. Out like a light. Slept for over 12 hours, but it was a good refreshing sleep.

I'm going to go meet Clover today. I'm not sure how happy I am about that. We were very good friends for a while, but she stabbed me in the back on a number of occasions. I don't know if she even realizes how much it hurt. Lake doesn't trust her either, but is okay with me visiting her.

The largest reason I want to see Clover, is that I have an urge to piece back together as much of my old friend network as I can. I'm going to be very cautious and feel her intentions out. I would like be close friends again, but I fear the trust may never fully recover.