This country is running headlong into fascism. I was trying to make myself believe, "no, it couldn't happen", "they're only reacting to Sept 11th", "things will get back to normal".

No they won't

No they won't

I didn't watch the Super Bowl, so I'm just learning now about the government-sponsored commercials claiming that anyone who uses illegal drugs, is contributing to terrorism (and therefore according to the USA PATRIOT Act, is a terrorist). The Führer himself is quoted on the front page of www.theantidrug.com saying "If you quit drugs, you join the fight against terror in America."; implying, though less forcefully than the ads, that drug users are supporting terrorism. He is going to extend his "war on terrorism" to include everything.

We're in for a long dark decent into the New World Order. They've found their excuse to take over, and they are going to do it.

I don't believe it will be very long before I, and many of my friends, will hear the secret police knocking on our doors. Taking us in the middle of the night.

In the past, the fascist factions in the United States government have been kept from taking control by the intricate web of checks and balance the founding fathers wove into the constitution

The Führer has used September 11th to cut the web apart.

I no longer believe there are checks and balances in this government.

I no longer believe that the courts will uphold the constitution.

I believe democracy is dead in America.

Hmmm.. Just reread my last post. Maybe I was a bit paranoid. I still don't trust Bush, but I don't think democracy is dead yet, just injured. I don't believe that Bush is a friend of democracy, but maybe the courts will stop him. They haven't ruled yet on the USA PATRIOT Act, or any of it's implications. Maybe the American people will actually wake up to what Bush is trying to pull. I believe, or at least want to believe, that the American people won't stand for a complete fascist take-over.

Why do I care? Why do I care what happens? I am not part of this society. Why should I care?

When I was homeless, I shoplifted — a lot. I need to get money somehow.

Do I think it was wrong?
No.

Do I feel bad about it?
No.

I knew I wasn't part of society, so I wasn't bound by it's rules. I never stole from people, just corporations. That was my own rule. Yes, things probably would have been easier if I had taken my friend up on her offer of teaching me the art of pickpocketing on Newbury Street. But I didn't. Some strange moral, even than, stuck in my head. Why should I have cared? The average tourist is merely inconvenienced by pickpockets, while my life would have been so much easier.

Through the years I've found a place to live and I actually found a few employers that would hire me. I never made the money that I should have, but that was okay. I felt, maybe, in some small way, I was part of society.

But now, with things falling apart again, inside and out, I find there is no support for people like me. If it weren't for a few of my friends, right now, I'd be on the steets again.

I feel them.

The streets are always there in my mind.

The endless roads

The cold nights

The dark hours.

The fear

Losing lots of time. Not knowing what was where

Always confused.

That was a dark time.

And I feel it knocking again.

I know Lake would never let it happen

But I feel it knocking.

Knocking

Knocking