Just woke up. I went to sleep at a reasonable hour last night (around 1AM), but I just couldn't wake up. I was up briefly this morning to fix purpleglitter coffee, breakfast, and lunch. But after she left, I just couldn't stay up.

I've been thinking about the post-Avengers pizza last night. About 45 minutes into pizza things inside started destabizing for no apparent reason, so I left early. By itself, that isn't such a big deal. However, if we were to go to one of their actions and have similar problems or lose time, it could be highly problematic. While I don't think that is probable, it is definitely possible. I don't want to distract from whatever they are trying to accomplish at that particular action. Knowing that, I don't think it would be wise for us to go to one their actions. I don't feel right going to the Avengers meetings knowing that I can't participate in their actions.

I know they'll say that I should go to the meetings anyway. They're all really nice, open, and accepting people. However, I do not wish to take advantage of their hospitality. The fact of the matter is, if I can't help then I have no business being there.

I just heard from one of my lj friends that I've been extremely worried about. Not only have I been reading her journal faithfully, I've been talking to her 2 or 3 times a day on AIM. I've come to care about her, as I do many of my online friends.

I haven't heard from her in around 2½ weeks, and the last time I heard from her she wasn't doing well.

She's been through a lot these past 2½ weeks, but she's still kicking. She's such a wonderful and unique person. I wish I could make everything better, but I know that's not possible. Right now, I'm just happy that she's okay.

Thanks in large part to the comments of sheerchaos and grrldan, I think I will continue to go to the Tuesday meetings.

I was probably being narrowminded in thinking that I couldn't contribute to the Lesbian Avengers if I couldn't participate in their actions. While I still wish I could participate in the actions, there are other things I can do. And even if there weren't other things I can do, I at worst have a neutral impact at the meeting (and at best, actually I'm actually helpful), and therefore me going doesn't create a problem. And since my going has a neutral or positive impact on the Avengers and definitely has a positive impact on me, I will continue to go.

Mazzy just sat down by the full length mirror on the floor. She looked at the mirror and let out a big hiss. I guess she didn't like that other nosey cat staring at her.