Went to the SS Office today to appeal my disability claim. zarthon came with me again. They asked quite a few questions and Debra did most of the answering. She's good at dealing with professional and bureaucrat type people. zarthon was very helpful. Even though the whole thing went smoothly, it was very disheartening. I was very depressed when I left and everything was switchy.

After zarthon brought me home and subsequently went on his way, I was panicking and everything was still switchy. I don't think we'll actually get onto disability. I'm scared that I'll eventually end up homeless again. This time dragging purpleglitter down with me. I don't want to do that.

We paced up and down in the kitchen loudly for some time. Very animated, very switchy, very not well. I don't know what to do. I don't know if any of us do. Some seem to be taking it all better than others, but the system is not doing well. I can feel it.

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