zarthon and purpleglitter came over last night. They brought with them Indian food from Akbar. Yummy yummy yummy. I had a wonderful time eating and hanging out with them. I don't see enough of zarthon, he should really come over more often.

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We did a very good relaxation exercise at the partial program today. I felt like I was on some sort of drug afterwards. Everything was floaty and surreal. Objects seemed in unusually crisp relief.

Cambridge Hospital produced the relaxation tape we listened to and sells it for only $6. I'd buy one if I had anything to play it on.

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I've been doing much better on the eating front the last few days. A conservation I had with dan4th over the phone while I was on Cahill 3. Not necessarily what he said, but the way he listened to what I said. I don't want to give up. I want to keep fighting. I want to live. And if I'm going to live I need to eat.

My weight has gotten into dangerous territory, I now weigh less then I did when I was homeless. I needed to turn around, and I think maybe I'm doing that. I don't know if it's going to last, but I'm going to try.

my furniture keeps changing sizes. things keep getting bigger than smaller as i float through the room. i love the flashing light ball.

The luminescent crystal ball devise coolwhitestare gave me is much more than a neat toy. It's a drug. If set properly, one can stare into the crystal ball and enter a trance state. It's wonderful. It's also addictive.