I spent the night in the psych ward last night. Been very suicidal lately. Have been cutting as well. Not doing well in general. I fear the Central Group is collapsing. We're losing the cohesion that we've had for almost 16 years. Everyone, inside and out, has a different theory on what is going on and how to fix it. I just know that things are collapsing. We're more unstable than I can ever remember being. I don't like this at all.