I'm having my U.T.I.-like symptoms again tonight. Really bad. Drinking lots of cranberry juice. Hope it works. Going to call my doctor tomorrow and get a referral to a urologist.

I just got back from my neurologist appointment. She wants me to come back Thursday for an EEG. She's not sure at this point what is causing my problems. Hopefully the EEG will help sort things out. She also wants me to keep a log of when I have any symptoms such as seizures, paralysis, or dizzy spells. I have to keep the log for 2 months.

the good: purpleglitter and i met riga_mortia at the diesel café. we had good conversations. it was very nice, all three of us sitting together again. everything peaceful, even if i did get a bit claustrophobic in the diesel.

the whoops: due to mixed up timing i missed meeting mutehalo. i really want to see him, maybe we can try to get together another time

the sucky: it currently feels like my head is going to explode. it doesn't hurt. i'm just incredibly twitchy and disorientated. i'm very shaky. i don't know why i feel like this. i've been sleeping practically since i got back from the diesel at 6:15pm. i should feel fine, but i'm falling on the floor. i guess i should note this in the log my neurologist wants me to keep. everything feels like it's about to collapse. i can't figure out what's psychological and whats neurological. maybe everything is a mix of both. maybe i'm fucked up on a fundamental level. maybe i was already fucked up and the nasty events only triggered my symptoms, but did not cause them. maybe there is no cure. maybe i am just what i am.