I made a new friend in circle. Don't know how much it can be trusted yet, but all seems good at this point. However, I should be able to do some real work now.

I also realized the importance of deities and mythology, finally. Entities that you can trust, and know what to expect from, to a degree. I've resisted adopting deities and a mythology for so long. I'm thinking of creating my own mythology. I've already started in a way, creating the mysticism around wish pods. And that endeavor turned out very successful. As long as I believe what I write, it will have power.

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Should I create my own mythology and deities to worship?

I missed my EEG. Again. I overslept. I must ask myself if I really want to go. Am I subconsciously missing my appointments on purpose. If so, what am I afraid of. What it might show or what it might not. Any result is a bad one. If it shows nothing, it doesn't help me with my problems, and the doctors will take them less seriously contributing them to my mental issues. If it shows something, that's scary. I don't need a new problem. Maybe it would be better if it was part of my mental issues. I don't know. I know I am scared. I hope I'm not missing them on purpose. I hope they'll let me reschedule again. I need to call them. Blah.