i'm not feeling very good
very twitchy and dizzy
i fell down several times at stop & shop
i thought i was done with feeling like this
panic, overstimulation, mind looping
i'm not supposed to feel like this anymore
i'm taking my meds
i know it will pass
i feel it receding already
but not enough
i hate these attacks
i'm just glad they are few and far between nowadays

scratch that receding bit
the panic, twitchy, loopy feeling is coming back full force
i wish i had my klonopin here, i'd take some and go to sleep
i don't like this
i don't like this

feeling better
now i go to bed

Been trying to figure out what species of mouse Marshmallow is. She doesn't look at all like a house mouse, her body is short and round and her eyes and ears are larger. Her tail is also a bit shorter than a house mouse's. She looks more like a wood mouse or a deer mouse, but not enough like them to be either. I have no idea what kind of mouse she is, she may be a rare sort. I've looked her up on the search engines and found nothing. I'm going to go to the library sometime this week and get a book on mice to try to figure out what kind she is.

My salvia divinorum just arrived in the mail. I'm going to try it out momentarily!

so far i've gotten much hallucinations of angles and brightness, but no thought component. Moving around accurately is difficult. the keyboard is shrinking. the monitor is an odd shape. i am very hot. i feel good, but i was hoping for more of a mind experience. Maybe if I combine this with the strobe light or flashing light ball tonight i'll get a better effect in that regard.

I read online that you get a larger effect by chewing salvia divinorum. I tried it. It's very not worth it. I have never tasted something so foul. Yuck!