i knew i shouldn't drink with my stomach problems
now i'm vomiting
oh well, i wanted to be self destructive
here i go!

i think i'm going to call the psych emergency people. i can't decide whether i'm going to try to kill myself or not, and before i decide to i should give them a chance. i know suicide is bad, but it seems so tempting. my mind won't shut up. i want to tear my face off. everything is panic panic panic twitch twitch twitch. it's getting worse every day lately. i need to get back on celexa and as i can't find mine i can get more from the psych emergency people. i hope at least.

they want me to call an ambulance and come in. but i've changed my mind, i don't want to go. i don't want to check myself back into the hospital, and i know that's where they'll put me. i want to go this year without being in the hospital.

I am on Cahill 3 in Cambridge Hospital.

The phone number here is 617-876-9232.

Visiting hours are from 4-8 on weekdays and 11:30 to 8 on weekends and holidays.

posted by purpleglitter

I'm doing better than I was this morning. As long as I don't have another episode, I should be out by the end of the week. As usual, there are many nice people here. Crazy people are the coolest.

posted by merryperseis