ducks can put half the brain into sleep mode and leave the other half alert
wouldn't that be handy
it would also be interesting to have a completely left brain experience
and then have a completely right brain experience
would the right brain be able to remember what the left brain did?
of course the duck system allows the waking side to awake the sleeping side
they use this primarily to literally keep an eye out for predators
but if i were doing someones taxes i could let my right side go to sleep
and i wonder what art could be made without interference from the left
this would be interesting to experiment
i would like to try something like this on acid
it just might be feasible.
just maybe
possible
kinda sorta a minor likelihood
worth a shot
would be a nifty skill
i could function all day long
8 hours right only
8 hours left only
8 hours both
if memory doesn't work well in transfers, i could attempt a synchronize function and bring the other half up to date
in any case i've dealt with not remembering the majority of my day before
losing time, even in this odd scheme wouldn't be disastrous
at any one point i'd have at least two thirds of my memories
and a third of the time i'll have them all
well all that i can remember
as i don't have all my memories still
but i have been doing good at keeping present nowadays
my therapist says this is a good thing
my therapist is going to ask me all sorts of questions about what happened
i don't want to answer them
mostly because i don't know what caused it
i guess it could be the celexa outage, but i don't think that's explains everything
i talk with my pdoc monday too, perhaps i'll ask her if that could explain it
she'll probably say "yes" and squawk at me for losing them and not getting them replaced
but i didn't have any money and masshealth won't cover replacements for lost pills
that's all i feel like typing at this time
so i'm going to end this post
goodbye

There is an insane amount of snow outside, and soon I must go out and shovel purpleglitter's back steps and porch. Her back steps and porch are a very big job, as she lives up high, and the rickety steps come all the way up. I still love the snow, even if I have to shovel it. So much snow. So much wonderful fluff. Yay!

I just shoveled more snow than i ever shoveled before, and it's still coming down. purpleglitter's back door was completely covered with drifts. While it was light snow, it was still a lot of work. A good workout. I needed a workout, as I'm beginning Project Three Meals again today. Now I'm going to relax.

the light is flickering off
soon all that will be left will be a faint afterglow
the universe will grow cold and dark
the universe's thoughts will get slower
as a cosmic old age sets in
will the universe be satisfied with its life?
will it hold regrets?
and what of us?
our memory left in some dark barren lifeless rock orbiting a long dead star
is the universe required to remember us any differently?
what have we done for the universe?
nothing
when we do something for the universe, then maybe we can expect something in return
so far the universe has provided for us quite nicely
it gave us a warm sun and a wet world
it's us who can't manage our recourses
it's humans that are fucking everything up
maybe the universe would pay us more mind if we could show that we are responsible
no, we're going to blow ourselves up first
one big species suicide
boom

I ate a vegetarian sloppy joe for breakfast, resurrection curry for lunch & dinner, and an orange for my healthy snack. However I also ate some candy and fiddle faddle. But I got in plenty of exercise shoveling snow and climbing large snow drifts to get into the house_of_clocks.