I'm apparently not making it in to see my pdoc today. I might not see my therapist either. I just don't feel like going out.

I was hypnotized in therapy today. I was wicked twitchy and panicky when I went in. I said I wanted to reset my brain. She asked how I planned on doing that. I told her I didn't know, when actually I do. But she then hypnotized me. I thought it was just going to be a relaxation exercise, but it went deeper. We went to a safe space which happened to be purpleglitter's bedroom. There I saw purpleglitter's bed, but it was draped in purple satin. Then I saw all the stuffed animals. Goldie the Lolly was there as well, which was a bit out of place. Then I went into a circular library with long wooden ladders on wheels to reach the higher shelves. I pulled out a notebook on therapy and started to read it, but i lost the connection and was back in my therapists office. It was really cool. I felt completely relaxed. My therapist says were going to begin each session from now on with a little bit of hypnosis.

I just took 2 hits of acid. I'm fucking out of my mind to be doing this right now everyone is telling me. But I've waited years for this, I'm not waiting any longer. I need to reset my mind.