Big lumps of crazy snow falling from the sky!! I should check to see how much we're going to get.

In less than 24 hours I will find out the results of my EEG. Finally. After all this time, I will know for better or for worse. The long wait, the long fight, is coming to a close. This may very well mark the beginning of a new struggle, but at least a new struggle will mean that I've made progress. Finally, whatever it may be, my future can soon begin.

Getting a bit nervous now as the time approaches. 13 hours and 17 minutes until I might finally get the answers. At this point I have no idea what he is going to say. My mind is running through a thousand scenarios.

That's what I do, I obsessively run through what might happen so that I'll be better prepared for it. I do it for major events like this as well as everyday interactions and activities. I used to think that everyone did that, but I have since learned that is not the case. Most people actually just take things as they come, and if they run scenarios at all it is only for major event and then only one or two scenarios are run. Most do not take the process anywhere near as far as I do.

Running scenarios is especially important when I will be dealing with others in a potentially volatile situations or situations that may be socially confusing or overwhelming. I get lost easily and I do not pick up on social cues from others well and, although I have gotten somewhat better at that over the years. My run throughs help me know what to say and do before hand, and in that way compensate for my lack of social ability.

I've become so good at mentally compensating in many areas of my life, most people don't even realize they are very difficult problems for me. I often wonder what I could accomplish if I didn't have to spend so much of my mental resources on compensation for those resources on compensation. On the other had, I wonder what my life would be like if I wasn't lucky enough to have the degree of mental resources that I am gifted with, because without them compensation would be nearly impossible. I would be rendered almost completely non-functional.

Wow. That was some tangent.

Whatever the neurologist tells me tomorrow, things will be different for me after my appointment. I will have a different outlook, for better or for worse.

The envelope please.