The room is floating. There are people talking behind me. They are far distance. They are talking about clovers. The door is open and closing. Someone new has entered. They are talking about what state various people are in.

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keeping people happy. everyone happy is hard. i always feel like i need to be keeper of a balance that i can never find. i just want to make other people happy. i don't want anyone to be mad at me. i just want every on be happy. i like people. lots of people. keep them all happy. keep the world happy. i can't keep everyone happy.

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my throat is scratchy

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listening to 80s music.

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gotta take everything they give me. they give me lots of meds. i gotta take them or bad things will happen. i don't want bad things to happen. i take my meds. i not gonna let bad things happen.

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it's lake's birthday. but not really.

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there are things i can't let people know. they tell me not to tell you. they are scared. but i don't know the things you want me to want you to know.

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little things i won't tell you. i can't let you know. they don't want me to let you know. they know you know you want to know.

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need to be perfect. can't show error. must seem perfect. not show errors.

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three dots three dots three dots

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every time

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where am i. i am talking to who. someone out there. far away. or nearby. hello

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