2mg of klonopin
2mg of ativan
i should be asleep soon
but for now some stream of consciousness
i had a good day
except for all the hiding under the covers
i sleep a lot
sleeping is like hiding
i have strange dreams
but reality is surreal, too
i don't know where i'm going
i thought i had my bearings
but i seem to have lost them again
must get back on course
i need to do something
i need to be doing something
i'm lost
i'm very lost
i don't know who i am anymore
i once wrote a letter to myself
but i lost it
i don't remember what it said
i was supposed to read it
it told me who i was
but now i don't know
it's been a long time
a very long time
and i'm still searching
for something i may never have had
questions
i'm going to be 30 very soon
three decades
what have i done with my time?
glass prisms in the window
streetlights shine outside
the night is calm
i want to go to spy pond
but too late for that
pills pills pills
i wish i had some pot
i would so love to get stoned
or drunk
or anything really
acid or ecstasy would be nice
find out stuff
i want to find the answers
i didn't meditate tonight
should have
too late now
i'll remember to do that tomorrow
tomorrow
gotta deal with the bank and phone company tomorrow
fun fun
someday i'll get the phone reconnected
i also need to get the party invites sent out
gather up email addresses
i'm going to go to sleep now
sleep
sleep
sleep
good night