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I've been having falling/dizzy spells/seizure/whatever the fuck it is issues again. I've had felt a bit more wobbly over the last week, but it's really spiked the last couple days. According to merryperseis, my eyes dilated at the beginning of the episode on the bus coming home from the North End on Friday. This does not surprise me, as one of the major symptoms of the episodes is muscle weakness and poor coordination which often makes eye focus difficult, so eye dilation would make sense. However, as this is only time eye dilation has been noted in conjunction with one of these episodes, and I would prefer it to be noted again to designate it as a symptom instead of as a coincidence.

Yesterday was much worse than Friday. My morning walk an with taiaselene was without incident. I was fine until the afternoon, which went horribly. An incident that while waxing and waning lasted for well over an hour. There was in addition another significant episode in the evening, though shorter and less severe than the afternoon one.

Of course, there is no way of really knowing where this is going and when the cycle will wane again. I am using a cane/staff again when I go out and will until this bares itself out. I will not let these episodes keep me from going for my walks and other outdoor activities. I refuse to let this control my life. Sure, that increases the chance that I might be sent to the emergency room by the unduly worried — but that just means I'll have an opportunity for a cathartic release of anger at whatever asshole doctor I get. Works for me.

I saw an ophthalmologist today. He told me that my eyes are fine with the exception of some form of colour vision deficiency. Any other visual problems I'm having are either psychological or neurological in origin.

I was a bit disappointed to learn that my eyesight now test at 20/20, and that is with a good deal of advancement in my compensating algorithms. When I was a teen my eyesight tested at was 15/20. I always reasoned that the extra resolution made up for the colour deficiency. I don't know if the decrease is a result of the aging of my eyes, an increasing level of static, or both.

On a fun note, I drew quite a bit of attention walking around Osco Drugs and elsewhere in my front lacing satin and velvet black dress with draping sleeves, my large purple and black jesters cap with bells, and the funky disposable sunglasses they give out when they dilate someone's eyes. One elderly gentleman upon entering Osco drugs, looked at me an exclaimed "I've gotta stop taking those drugs they're giving me.".

I've been wearing this outfit for the last few days sans the disposable sunglasses and have acquired a good number of mostly joyful comments and looks.