Is God benevolent or malevolent? Does God love us? Is God wrathful?

These questions are fitting to ask of some man with a flowing grey beard that lives in the sky, but they are unanswerable as to God as All.

God is not only the sky above and the ground below and all that dwells in those places. God is not only everything we can touch, God is more.

God is all creation all destruction. God is life and and God is death. God is the bleeding wound and the passionate kiss. God is the roar as well as the silence.

God is all beliefs and doubts. God not just the concept of heaven and hell, but the concept that there is an above and below. God is the ideas we think as well as the air we breathe.

God is all emotions. God is all love and all hate. God is all benevolence and all malevolence. God is all wrath and all forgiveness.

God is our mathematics and our law. Our fears and our courage. Our arts, our poetries, our languages and the metaphors behind them. The truth as well as the lie.

God is energy and matter. God is the motion of the falling rock as well as the rock that falls.

God is the Happening that is the Becoming. God is what was, will be, and has been. God is even that which is not, has not been, and will never be; if what is not, has not been, and will never be is but thought.

God is the All of Everything, the Universe of Universes. This is why there can be nothing greater than God. No threat needed, no coercion. There can be none greater than All that Is, because anything else is simply part of the Everything.

ganked from many:

On the twelfth day of Christmas, neitherday sent to me...

Twelve squirrels suffering

Eleven strings writing

Ten crows a-kissing

Nine cats birdwatching

Eight trees a-scrying

Seven cigars a-walking

Six politics a-nothing

Five ci-i-i-ivil liberties

Four zebra finches

Three haunted houses

Two psych wards

...and a luna in an astronomy.

Get your own Twelve Days:

Good morning.

I had a wonderful thanksgiving. In yesterday's post on thanks giving, I wrote about one aspect of thankfulness. However, there are many aspects of thankfulness and there is much I am thankful for. The following is an incomplete list:

I am thankful to have been able to spend a holiday with my sister, brother-in-law, and niece. I am thankful to be able to call them family. I am thankful for the rest of my family, both found and blood. I am thankful that I have a home to head to, and that when I get there I will not have to worry about having enough to eat. I am thankful that I can express my thanks online. I am thankful that, even if I have problems with it sometimes, I have access to medical care. I am thankful that I live in a place that I can leave my house anytime day or night and be relatively safe. I am thankful for the kisses I get from Skye. I am thankful for Spy Pond. And, I am thankful that I am not so bitter and jaded that I could not be thankful for the blessing I have received.

Watched Amelie with purpleglitter and merryperseis last night. merryperseis had never seen it before, and liked it so much she added it to her interest list. It was nice watching such a wonderful movie with my two favorite people in the whole world.

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I plan on spending today with purpleglitter, although I snuck in a valentine's day kiss with merryperseis at around 1:00am. purpleglitter and I don't quite know what we're doing today yet other than my daily workout. However, that is not romantic, and we need to come up with something romantic to do. Maybe a candlelight dinner or something along those lines. We'll think of something as the day progresses. I love purpleglitter and am glad I get to spend the day with her.

Chimed in the new year with merryperseis and purpleglitter at the Warehouse 23 New Years Party. I spent a lot of time talking with cobweb, one of the hosts and someone that I didn't see nearly enough of in 2002. Hopefully, we'll rectify that in 2003.

Warehouse 23 is incredible. A maze of passages and rooms. Trippy electronic lighting effect. Parachute tentrooms. Mirrors and blacklights. Obviously took a lot of effort, skill, and creativity to set up. Amazing, simply amazing. I could happily spend days just exploring the place.

On the chime of midnight I got kisses from both purpleglitter and merryperseis. I couldn't ask for a better way to start the year.

I gave away my first wish pods of the year to some of the various party goers and over the course of the night and acquired a sequined sparkly strip of fabric in my hair. All-in-all I had a wonderful time and am looking forward to 2003 being better than 2002.

Please don't say "I love you". Darling, I mean it. No more kisses. No more caresses. No more, darling. No more. We can still talk to each other. I will still listen to your troubles. I will still hold you when you cry. But, no more will your lips touch mine.

I'm envisioning blood flowing from my arms in brilliant red streaks, carrying with it my pain and sorrow. It feels good and right. I want to let everything bleed out. Bleed out. Bleed out. It will feel so wonderful to let it all just drain from my soul. The razor's gentle caress will free me. The razor's gentle kiss will give me peace.