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I just painted 20 wish pods. I'll be able to start handing them out again to people I meet. I miss doing that. It was my signature in a way. It will be again. | |||||||||||||||||
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i try to use make my journal as accurate an expression of me as possible i try to censor as little of my life as possible it is important it is part of my statement be ashamed of nothing i know i don't embody that fully there are things i'm ashamed of i'm ashamed that i still pick my nose that's something i've never mentioned in livejournal and i am now because this journal should be an expression of me i try to use filters when posting things that might hurt somebody i know there's a chance the person may see it anyway but i can't break my statement i must post how i'm feeling where i am it is a selfish act i know this but i feel compelled to do it anyway i think that is why many people read my journal because i don't hold much back if i'm doing bad, i say i'm doing bad if i just cut, i say i just cut if i do cocaine, i say i did cocaine i'm not trying to paint a bad or good picture i'm trying to paint a real picture i want the journal to be as pure as possible and i know i've alienated and hurt people i love in the process i know i've shot myself in the foot by saying too much at times maybe i should change how i do things maybe this journal is too much maybe my statement is made already maybe i should be less obsessed with letting go releasing everything | |||||||||||||||||
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I took my walk rather later today. Missed neitherday and was firmly in morning. But, I did notice several pennies embedded in the rubbery crack sealant. I wonder just how many coins are in the streets of Arlington. My theory is that there are too many to have fallen there during or shortly after construction, and that cars running over coins embed them into the street long after construction. To test this, outside my house I have placed a penny. Assuming no one is insane enough to stop in the street to get it, I'll have my experiment. If, over the course of days or weeks, the coin becomes embedded, I'll know that coins can be embedded at anytime into the street. If it stays on the street and doesn't even make a dent, I'll know that they must be embedded during or shortly after construction or take an exorbitant amount of time to be embedded. ----- After placing my penny, I leaned against the side of the porch and looked out at it and smiled. After I stopped leaning, I discovered that the porch had been recently painted, and there was white paint all over the sleeve of my lovely black dress. I went in and cleaned it as fast as I could, and got all but a small white line off. Nothing I can't fix with a black marker. | |||||||||||||||||
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Out on my neitherday walks, I have noticed a dime embedded in the center of Mass Ave. It is stuck in the rubbery stuff they use to seal cracks in the road. I want that dime. I was out there tonight trying to pick the dime out with my fingers. A white SUV pulling out of a side street noticed me. They started to turn away from me. Backed up. Looked again. Started to turn towards me. I got out of the street and headed towards the ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} house_of_clocks, but the SUV turned back away from me and drove away.I went on with my walk. Sat down by Spy Pond and watched the silent waters. Saw many cats and a family of opossums. Walked up and down the side streets. Walking back to the house I saw 2 police cars drive by. They didn't see me as I was on the dimly lit side street. I went back and sat on the walkway in front of the house. The police kept driving by. Looking for something or someone with their spotlights. They inspected the Walgreens parking lot and kept looking nearby. They kept driving by me slowly, checking me out. But as I was on our walkway they didn't approach me. I decided to tempt fate and started on another walk. Immediately two police cars stopped me. Apparently they had received a call that someone was "graffiti-ing" Mass Ave near Walgreens. They noted that they couldn't find any graffiti. They asked me how long I'd been outside and if I'd seen anyone. I told them about my walk and said I saw no one. they didn't really suspect me of "graffiti-ing" the missing graffiti, so they drove off. I'm guessing the person in the white SUV who saw me trying to get the dime, thought I was spray painting Mass Ave. It was dark, and they weren't very close. They probably called me in. That dime is mine. I'm going to take something to pick it out on my next walk. That dime is mine. | |||||||||||||||||
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Went to the partial program at Cambridge Hospital today. I was nervous, but there was really no reason to be. The staff was very nice and I enjoyed meeting the other patients. My only complaint is that the lunch had no vegetarian option. But, we are allowed to bring our own lunch or use the hour and a quarter provided for lunch to go to a nearby eatery. The groups were much better than the groups I've been to while inpatient at other places. There was very little time between most groups, only about 15 minutes. I liked the constant movement the day seemed to have. The CBT group (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) was the most useful of the groups. I learned a lot, which is something I don't generally do in groups. Most groups that attempt to provide structured information tend to simply drone over things I already know. I was very excited to find something that has new ideas and at the same time makes a great deal of sense. I think that CBT could really help me. There was also an OT group in the afternoon. For those of you foreign to the psych hospital experience, OT stands for Occupational Therapy which means arts and crafts. Today was arts. Watercolor cutouts. OT has always been my favorite group during my inpatient stays, and will probably continue to be my favorite at the partial program. | |||||||||||||||||
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Late yesterday afternoon, I met Sara in Harvard Square to discuss housing issues and get some paperwork filled out. I had completely forgotten about the Octoberfest celebrations in Harvard Square. The entire square was packed. I walked around looking at the various vendors' wares. I stopped at one of the various tables offering Indian food, and got some really cheep pakoras which I smothered in tamarid sauce. After the meeting with Sara, I met up with ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} riga_mortia. We went back to my place, where we painted and played writing games. riga_mortia was feeling slightly under the weather, however, we still stayed up later than we intended talking, writing, drinking, and listening to music.In the morning, riga_mortia's slightly under the weather had bloomed into an full blown cold. For a nice sick person breakfast, I fed her chicken and rice soup. Being vegetarian, it's surprising that I had a can of it lying around. I'm not sure where I got it at this point, it has been languishing on the back of my food shelf for quite some time and I've never gotten around to throwing it out or giving it away.As riga_mortia rested, I made a quick run to see Jude and drop off some paperwork. The housing issue seems to be moving ahead, which is good. However, the sum of all the incomes of the tenants I've lined up is less than what Jude was pushing for. While together we can definitely afford the place, that could be a problem. However, I'm going to have to risk it.riga_mortia is still running a fever, I hope she feels better soon. I'm going to go out to the corner store shortly and pick her up some Gatorade and cold medication. | |||||||||||||||||
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Tuesday, September 17th, all are invited to my playroom in the house_of_clocks to paint wish pods. Wish pods and some paint will be provided, and you get to keep all the wish pods you paint. Fun starts around 7:00pm, but come a bit later if you want to. If you need directions, email me at wishpodpaint@neitherday.com. | |||||||||||||||||
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| purpleglitter and I went to a party at Sinister House. I got to see my old friend Mitzi, whom I had not seen in quite some time. I have missed her greatly. I also saw missclover. I have had some issues with missclover in the past, however I think we worked a lot out between us. I still like her very much, and it hurts that I don't know if we'll ever be as close friends as we once were. Regardless, I do very much look forward to renewing a friendship with her.At one point, there was a large discussion of LiveJournal, but I wasn't able to get everybody's username, as I forgot to bring my pen. I met many new and exciting people at the party and gave out a great many wish pods. I'm actually starting to run low on my supply of wish pods, and need to go out and gather more. I used to have two large jars of wish pods. Now, the last jar is nearing the bottom. | |||||||||||||||||
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The Bebe situation continues to spiral downwards. Lake and I noticed large gashes on lakes beautiful hand-painted kitchen table. She spent days working on it, and Bebe decides it's a great idea to cut on it without a cutting board. We didn't exactly confront Bebe about it. We talked about how angry we were quite loudly, so she could hear us. Then we removed Lake's table from the kitchen. The gouges can be covered up with some painted vines at this point, so we want to protect the table from further damage. We put the crappy, falling apart card table from the corner of the playroom in the kitchen to replace it. It will remain in the kitchen for the remainder of Bebe's occupancy. After Bebe moves out, we will replace it with a nicer table, but we will not put Lake's table back out until we live alone.  | |||||||||||||||||
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Fucking shit! My case worker left for the day without seeing us. The pdoc says he guarantees that I'll be able to leave tomorrow. I have to stay an extra fucking day because of some stupid person's mistake. Debra says not to show anger. I know she is correct, and will do as she says. I'm sooo pissed off. I skipped art group, where they painted ceramics, to see her. Grrr. Beverly is writing these first in a paper journal and i am typing them in for her. - Lake | |||||||||||||||||
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My mood has greatly improved since the clock making experience an hour ago and the cutting experience an hour before that. I think I'm going to do something creative. I feel the need to. I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Make another clock? Work my online quiz? Paint wish pods? Something else? I'll have to look around the playroom and decide what I want to do. | |||||||||||||||||
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Painted some wish pods and futzed around on the computer, then at around 2:30pm we became very switchy and were in general freaking out. I decided it would be best just to go ahead and go to bed. I made it past the start time of the appointment we have tomorrow, so I feel that I adjusted my schedule enough. | |||||||||||||||||
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