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| How to Deal with Cockroaches | |||
From the The Universal Household Assistant or What Every One Should Know (1884):
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From the The Universal Household Assistant or What Every One Should Know (1884):
* Teething was thought to be a common cause infant mortality in the 19th century, however most "teething deaths" were actually caused by opium poising from the opium and morphine teething infants were treated with. | |||
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| Lead and Ergot for Uterine Hemorrhaging | |||
From the The Universal Household Assistant or What Every One Should Know (1884):
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From the The Universal Household Assistant or What Every One Should Know (1884):
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| Off the Store Pet food | ||
I threw out all of It felt very odd cooking the ground chicken. I've been a vegetarian for over 14 years, and I've not cooked any meat in that time. However, my cats being obligate carnivores must have meat. Perhaps, if there is some sort of regulatory oversight worked out for the pet food industry that will insure that we don't have a massive contamination and recall like the one that is still being expanded, I might someday switch back to the store bought stuff. But for now, it's home cook'n for my kitties. | ||
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| Recall Expanded Again | |||
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| Dry Food Recalled | ||
from Science Diet is one of them, which is what Paddington eats. Her diet wet food was already recalled, now her diet dry. She's just going to have to eat | ||
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| Yep, It's Spring | ||
Two roaches were found in the upstairs bathroom. I set up traps and a spring cleaning is definitely in order. I wonder if the tradition of spring cleaning originated in response to the returning of the bugs. | ||
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| Thoughts on Heroin | ||
I did heroin twice about 6 years ago. I snorted it both times. It was good. It was too good. Bliss. I wanted more. I still think about how it felt. I've never felt a good that good. It see it why it is easy to get hooked. Scary easy. Getting hooked is not fun. Even though I did not go down that road myself, I know that after a very short time of use the good feeling of doing it shifts to a bad feeling of not doing it. The body compensates by changing the balance of receptors on the neurons. This new equilibrium is upset when the heroin is missing causing extremely not pleasant sensations. Life quickly starts to revolve around heroin and the insatiableness hunger destroys everything around it. I've seen friends fall deep into that dark hole within a matter of a week or two. Heroin also has a cross-tolerance with other opiates and when a heroin addict actually needs pain killers because of illness or injury, and being a heroin addict increases the likelihood of both, those pain killers will be significantly less effective, if effective at all. For example, when a junky acquaintance of mine was stabbed a few years ago, the morphine he was given in the hospital did absolutely nothing for him. Absolutely nothing. I am at once tempted and terrified by heroin. I am terrified that I am tempted. The taste of the bait will always be in my head. | ||
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| Around the House | ||
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| The Dressers | ||
Got under both dressers done along with the around the kitty litter, again with | ||
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| A New Dawn | ||
it may be time to dust off this old journal it's been too long since i've been here i'm still off my meds i've been enjoying thinking again sure, things aren't perfect without meds i'm having more panic attacks but i am dealing with them my mood is far less stable as well but again, i'm dealing with it i haven't ended up back in the hospital since i stopped taking my meds many months ago sure i've been very suicidal at times even going so far as purchasing the necessary implements and formulating a plan but i haven't done it while i've had very deep lows on medication, i've also experienced moods much better than were possible before i feel a freedom i haven't felt in years and i have an optimism that things are going to get better it's not an easy road, but it seems like the best one i refuse to live life as a medicated zombie and that was what i had become it has been suggested to me that maybe i just need a lower dose and that complete abstinence is not the best idea but i've had it with the pill pushers and the drug companies i don't trust them at all i don't want their poison while my non-medication path seems to be moving along, i need more than that now that i can think clearly again, i need to figure out what i want to do with this newfound ability i need a project or a job or something due to lack of a project, i've been reading the news for hours a day a decidedly unhealthy activity i just succeed in working myself up about the latest atrocities committed by the neo-conservative regime and the new pope isn't helping my mood either i need to focus on my life right now, but i'm too distracted by the world i can't work for change until i change myself i need to work on that first it's going to be a long process but i full intend to take on the world in my own small way right now i'm still waking up from my slumber this is still the dawn the daylight is coming | ||
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| Down the Pipes | ||
I just flushed all my cocaine down the toilet after proving to myself that I can't keep it to once a month. I've done my experimentation with it, and it's too good. Too tempting. I can't go down that road. It was hard to do. All that pure white bliss down the toilet. But I know it won't stay bliss for long. Sweet poison is the deadliest. | ||
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| Of Dragons | ||
Last night I dreamt that I was a dragon. I was supposed to watch over two children, a boy and a girl. I was heading a corridor with the children when someone snuck up and stabbed the boy with a needle full of poison. I grabbed the boy and brought him to a healer. As I was caring for the boy, the girl was kidnapped. I had to fight other dragons and some people to rescue the girl. I breathed fire and flew high into the sky to the mountain where they were keeping her. I did end up rescuing her and flew her back to where the boy was staying. | ||
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| Xing Celexa | ||
I have decided to drop celexa from my med list. I'm going to keep the rest for now, but I do want to eventually phase them all out. Geodon will be the hard one. I don't know if I can make it without geodon. But the ghost said all my meds were poison. And I think it was speaking the truth. I just can't stop taking it all at once. I must continue my poison for a little while longer. | ||
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| What Every One Should Know | ||
A week ago, I found a book in my closet that I had never seen before. Printed in 1884, it is entitled The Universal Household Assistant or What Every One Should Know. It's "a cyclopedia of practical information" and has subjects listed in alphabetical order. Following are some of my favorite entries:
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