I've been avoiding making an appointment with my primary care doctor for my reflux problem, because I owe the Mount Auburn system over $1000 and she is part of it. But today I'm going to find out if she will accept an appointment from me. My reflux is just too bad. I'm painfully burping uncontrollably at times. It's very crude sounding, but I can't help it. It's my own fault, it is caused by my former problem with bulimia. I did the damage myself, now I'm paying for it. OTC rememdies are just not cutting it. Hopefully I can get some Prevacid. It helped before, but my three months of samples ran out. I need to get this taken care of, it's making me miserable.

Went to the chocolate party tonight. My taste buds had a lot of fun. However my stomach is does not agree with my taste buds on the joyousness of the evening. I feel hot and ill. I'm only have one Prevacid left so I took some ranitidine and am waiting for it to kick in. Hopefully I'll feel better enough to get some sleep. I need to get myself to the doctor to get more Prevacid, but that involves dealing with overdue medical bills that I don't feel like dealing with at this time, so I'll probably put it off and suffer. It's too bad there's not a black market for Prevacid, because I'd definitely purchase some.

I forgot to take my Prevacid this morning. This evening it caught up with me. I took the Prevacid about an hour ago and drank some baking soda. Neither helped. What finally helped was eating a tofu pup. The bun soaked up the excess acid. I guess that counts as meal 5.

I wish I was never bulimic. That's what caused my stomach problems. When I don't take my Prevacid my stomach gets so bad sometimes that I randomly vomit. It's quite horrible. Bulimia bad. Still keeps kicking me even after I've stopped. I may have this problem the rest of my life. Bulimia very bad.

I saw my pdoc today. She hadn't gotten my message about having to get pre-approval on my Celexa because she's been out sick. So I still haven't gotten my Celexa. I still haven't gotten my prescription antacid as well, need to call my primary care doctor and see what's up with the pre-approval on that. Today my pdoc gave me a prescription for Provigil. Something I really need as my other meds sap my energy. Well, as it turns out, under Romney Masshealth won't cover my prescription for Provigil, period. Pre-approval or not. And I can't afford to get it on my own. I hate Mitt Romney so much right now. He just squeaked by in a very close election. We're stuck with him for another 2 years.