From the The Universal Household Assistant or What Every One Should Know (1884):

Things to try. — Try popcorn for nausea.    Try cranberries for malaria.    Try a sun-bath for rheumatism.    Try ginger ale for stomach cramps.    Try clam broth for a weak stomach.    Try cranberry poultice for erysipelas.    Try a wet towel to the back of the neck when sleepless.    Try swallowing saliva when troubled with sour stomach.    Try eating fresh radishes and yellow turnips for gravel.    Try eating onions and horseradish to relieve dropsical swellings.    Try buttermilk for removal of freckles, tan, and butternut stains.    Try taking your cod liver oil in tomato catsup, if you want to make it palatable.    Try hard cider -- a wine-glass three times a day -- for ague and rheumatism.    Try taking a nap in the afternoon if you are going to be out late in the evening.    Try breathing the fumes of turpentine or carbolic acid to remove whooping cough.    Try a cloth wrung out from cold water put about the neck at night for sore throat.    Try snuffing powdered borax up the nostrils for catarrhal "cold in the head."    Try walking with your hands behind you if you find yourself becoming bent forward.    Try a silk handkerchief over the face when obliged to go against a cold piercing wind.    Try planting sunflowers in your garden if compelled to live in a malarial district.

Yesterday, I picked up a 5 gallon bucket of deli pickles at d'Agastino's. Something I haven't done in a couple years. I used to have a serious pickle habit, but I gave it up when I was having painful issues with reflux. But, I seem to be picking up the habit again. Pickles, YUM!

i knew i shouldn't drink with my stomach problems
now i'm vomiting
oh well, i wanted to be self destructive
here i go!

I've been avoiding making an appointment with my primary care doctor for my reflux problem, because I owe the Mount Auburn system over $1000 and she is part of it. But today I'm going to find out if she will accept an appointment from me. My reflux is just too bad. I'm painfully burping uncontrollably at times. It's very crude sounding, but I can't help it. It's my own fault, it is caused by my former problem with bulimia. I did the damage myself, now I'm paying for it. OTC rememdies are just not cutting it. Hopefully I can get some Prevacid. It helped before, but my three months of samples ran out. I need to get this taken care of, it's making me miserable.

It's been 5 days since I stopped smoking pot. So far the only differences I feel is that I'm more depressed and my stomach problems are worse. It is possible that neither have anything to do with pot. What should I do?

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Should I give up my drug-free experiment and smoke pot?

i haven't been posting much that i've been up to
i guess i'll make that up now
last weekend i planned to go to a party and a samhain rite
i had big fun at the party on Saturday
but i didn't make it to the rite on Sunday
i wasn't feeling up to it
i haven't been feeling up to much actually
i'm a shadow of the social butterfly i used to be
i need to get out more
but before that i need to get stable
and drinking tonight isn't helping
i feel less stable
and i feel ill as alcohol makes my stomach problems worse
but i'm drinking anyway
because bush won and we're all fucked
might as well fuck myself
i need to change direction
the direction i'm in is right into the dirt
it might not seem that i'm doing that badly
but i am
outwardly i'm doing better than i have in years
but inside i'm being torn up
for no good reason, it just feels like my mind is being ripped apart
"disordered thinking" as my therapist would say
i need to get motivated to change
i've always had a problem with motivation
stress and deadlines used to be the way i'd cope with that lack
i'd thrive on stress
now i just curl up under stress
i'm going to take another drink, lay down, and try not to vomit
ha! that's a good one
vomiting is what got me into this stomach mess in the first place
i used to make myself vomit
now i do it involunarily
fun fun
bulimia is evil
i wish i never went down that road
i've lived to regret it very much
i wish i could have a drink without feeling ill
i want to say it's not fair, but i did it to myself
it is fair
i just hate it

Went to the chocolate party tonight. My taste buds had a lot of fun. However my stomach is does not agree with my taste buds on the joyousness of the evening. I feel hot and ill. I'm only have one Prevacid left so I took some ranitidine and am waiting for it to kick in. Hopefully I'll feel better enough to get some sleep. I need to get myself to the doctor to get more Prevacid, but that involves dealing with overdue medical bills that I don't feel like dealing with at this time, so I'll probably put it off and suffer. It's too bad there's not a black market for Prevacid, because I'd definitely purchase some.

I forgot to take my Prevacid this morning. This evening it caught up with me. I took the Prevacid about an hour ago and drank some baking soda. Neither helped. What finally helped was eating a tofu pup. The bun soaked up the excess acid. I guess that counts as meal 5.

I wish I was never bulimic. That's what caused my stomach problems. When I don't take my Prevacid my stomach gets so bad sometimes that I randomly vomit. It's quite horrible. Bulimia bad. Still keeps kicking me even after I've stopped. I may have this problem the rest of my life. Bulimia very bad.

wanted to post before i went to bed
took all my goodnite meds
all kicking in
zarthon took purpleglitter and me out to rudy's today
i didn't eat that much
brought most of my dinner home
stomach wasn't feeling too good
but i'll have a nice lunch tomorrow

i'd like to post more
i'd like this to be a very long post
but i'm drifting off
so good night

I saw my pdoc today. She hadn't gotten my message about having to get pre-approval on my Celexa because she's been out sick. So I still haven't gotten my Celexa. I still haven't gotten my prescription antacid as well, need to call my primary care doctor and see what's up with the pre-approval on that. Today my pdoc gave me a prescription for Provigil. Something I really need as my other meds sap my energy. Well, as it turns out, under Romney Masshealth won't cover my prescription for Provigil, period. Pre-approval or not. And I can't afford to get it on my own. I hate Mitt Romney so much right now. He just squeaked by in a very close election. We're stuck with him for another 2 years.

I'm going to parties tonight and tomorrow. Both are going to have much alcohol. I decided 5 days ago not to drink until my birthday. Now, I'm regretting that decision. I don't think my digestive system has healed enough in this short time to allow me to get drunk without getting sick. And, getting sick at either party would be out of place. I may decide to bend the rules and allow myself one glass of champagne to sparkle in the new year, and one bloody mary tomorrow. I think my stomach and esophagus could handle that. My decision was made for no other reason than my general queasiness. It's not a resolution I need to stick to concretely. I just won't get drunk. It's been tradition for me to get completely wasted two nights a year. My birthday and New Years. Sure there are always other nights I get completely wasted. But those are the two it's usually mandatory to. But, responsible drinking is good, no? I guess I can do that, as boring as it seems from this angle.

I am not going to drink again until my birthday (March 22). Alcohol is just to harsh on my stomach and esophagus. My stomach and esophagus are still recovering from bulimia. It makes me extra sick. I can barely get drunk enough to enjoy it before I start feeling sick. I don't enjoy drinking now, and I'm not going to attempt it again until Spring.

My tummy doesn't like this Jeremiah Weed stuff anymore. And it's already told me that it no longer likes cheap wine or cheap vodka. I guess I'm just getting older. My stomach just can't handle what it used to. I think I'm going to switch to Fireball Whiskey. It's more expensive, but I don't drink that much so I think I can handle the extra expense when I do drink. Maybe I should just smoke more pot. However, drinking occasionally is fun, too. Pot, however, does have a mind expanding aspect that alcohol lacks. I think I will try to continue to smoke more pot than I drink. And when I drink I will drink Fireball Whiskey.

Purging is not worth the stomach problems and heartburn it causes. For days. I hate it. I'm not going to purge ever again. I'm done with that crap. I'm going to remember how I feel now, and just stop myself. It's okay to eat. I don't have to purge. It's over. Period.

i'm twitchy
i'm going to take a day off shaving
i don't need to look perfect every day
i don't need to worry about passing today
i'm not going anywhere anyone would care
i'm just going to go to purpleglitter's
relax
write some poetry
i wish i wasn't so twitchy
i don't know what's wrong
i just can't get rid of the twitches
my stomach is not feeling good today either
i think my twitches effect it
i'm going to take some ativan
and try to relax
i'm not doing good
i'm having bad urges
but i'm containing them
purpleglitter is going to pick me up in an hour
i'm going to get merryperseis to sit with me until then
so i don't do any bad things
i don't feel good
i'm very twitchy
shakey
but i'm doing better than i was
i haven't been twitchy most of the day
just now
the last few hours
i hate the twitchies
i will be doing better later
just right now i am not good
i will try
i'm going to stay out
out of the psych ward
....
phone call
it's myenergy (my mom)
gotta go

todays a new day
we don't have much oil
it is cold in here
i have my coat on so i am warm
i feel tired from last night
everything is moving
and staying still
i ate two large bean burritos merryperseis made for me
they were yummy
but my stomach says "why me?"

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it's a new day
what games will we play today?
what loops will my mind go through?
it's a new day
today
how many more will there be?
with a statement like that
maybe i should consider going back into the hospital
i want to wait until i see my therapist Tuesday
i want to stay out at least for a few days
i need to get my celexa refilled

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i added some people to my friends list
don't know if they'll add me back
i like adding people
but lately people have been taking me off their list
because i'm getting too fucked up
but that's okay
i understand
there is only so much fucked up some people can take

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is this poetry
it is if i say it is
but i don't
so it probably isn't
but maybe it still is
who knows?

I just purged. Second time this week. I hope I'm not slipping back into bulimia again. I don't want to get back to the point where I'm purging 5 times a day. It really wrecks havoc with my digestive system when I do that. I've felt so out of control lately. I don't know what's wrong with me. I keep talking about cutting and suicide. I know that's worrying everyone. It's worrying me. I don't want to live like this. I've very afraid that I will kill myself on the first snow. The urge, I fear, may be irresistible.

My new years resolution for 2002 will be to stop binging and purging.

I've been falling back into bulimia again, ever since I fucked up and lost my 24 purge-free days. Once I've started, it's so hard to get myself to cease. I eat and then feel overwhelming guilt about what I've eaten. I know it's bad for me. I know it really isn't as effective as it seems it should be. I need to stop again, before I refuck-up my upper digestive tract. That's why I'm going to make it a new years resolution. That way, I think I'm more likely to get it to work. I don't like to break my resolutions, and hopefully, I can have a purge-free year.

I wish this damn reflux would go away already. I think I'm going to set myself up with a doctor's appointment today and get some medication for it.

We've been purging everyday lately. Mostly me and Shirley. We had been doing it just once or twice a week. The increase has me a bit concerned, as I feel we may be starting to lose control of it again. The last time we lost control of it, we ended up with some pretty bad reflux problems. I don't really want this, there just seems no way to keep control.