I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. merryperseis came over to join purpleglitter and I in the livingroom. She had never seen our new place before and she arrived with perfect timing – just 10 minutes before dinner

I cooked portobello and artichoke stuffing, corn on the cob, baked homemade macaroni and cheese, edamame, and a pumpkin and carrot pie that turned out to be more of a pumpkin and carrot pudding — but still quite good, if I do say so myself. We all stuffed ourselves silly and had a good and mellow evening. Good company and too much food is how Thanksgiving is meant to be.

Over the course of a few hours I ate an entire bag of wasabi soy nuts. Around 1000 calories. I can't believe I did it. I am so tempted to purge, but I don't know how effective that will be as I spaced out the food over such a long time. I also don't want to purge, because I've been doing so good about that lately. If I don't eat anything else today, my digested calorie intake will be around 1500 calories. Not good, but not bad.

Instead of purging, I cut myself. I hate myself for having no willpower. If I cut myself after I overeat, maybe I'll learn not to overeat. Crazy, but that's what I was thinking. At least I didn't purge.