Yesterday, as predicted, didn't work out for Project Five. For breakfast I had pizza; for lunch I had rotini and faux italian sausage in a jalapeño jack sauce; for dinner I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with portobello mushrooms and parmesan cheese; for my first healthy snack I had a clementine; for my second healthy snack I had tortillas with spinach and garlic hummus.

I also had a hand full of walnuts and the rest of the Godiva chocolate. Several people have argued that Godiva chocolate is a healthy snack. I'm still not ready to put it in that category – regardless, both the nuts and the Godiva were beyond the two healthy snack quota and would therefore be outside the Project Five plan whether or not the Godiva is healthy.

I didn't get my exercise in either. I need to find a good indoor exercise regimen that I can and will do.

Yesterday was Valentine's Days. purpleglitter gave me a heart of chocolates from Godiva, which is absolutely wonderful but ensures that I failed at Project Five yesterday and will again today. However, I can't entirely blame not making Project Five yesterday on the Godiva. I at a cheese danish, got no exercise, and had half a microwave pizza before bed.

For breakfast yesterday, I had pizza; for lunch I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with portobello mushrooms and parmesan cheese; for dinner I had arepa de choclo; for my first healthy snack I had a clementine; and for my second healthy snack I didn't have one.

I'll get back on track tomorrow.

Yesterday didn't work at all for Project Five. For breakfast I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with mushrooms, peppers, and parmesan cheese; for lunch I had vegetable and paneer pakoras followed by shahi paneer korma with rice and naan, for a healthy snack I had tortillas with spinach and garlic hummus.

I did no real exercise and only ate 2 meals and 1 snack as opposed to 3 meals and 2 snacks. So, no dice on day 2.

Yesterday, for breakfast I had tomatoe soup with parmesan cheese; for lunch I had paneer tikka masala wrapped in a tortilla; for dinner I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with mushrooms, peppers, and parmesan cheese; for my first healthy snack I had peanuts; for my second healthy snack I had pumpkin seeds. I got in a good hour long walk around Arlington.

I would have made it, however I foiled myself first thing yesterday morning. Before I was awake enough to remember I was starting Project Five, I started gnawing on some thai barbecue tortilla chips.

For breakfast yesterday I had mixed pasta in a jalapeño jack and parmesan sauce, for lunch I had 1¹/₂ 7-layer burritos from Taco Bell (mmm... lettuce), for dinner I had spaghetti in a tomatoe sauce with zucchini, mushrooms, carrots, peppers and parmesan cheese. For my first healthy snack I had cashews, for my second I had a clementine. I completed my exercise quota in the form of a cigar walk to Stop & Shop.

For breakfast yesterday, I had a fried egg sandwich with mozzarella and cheddar on a toasted focaccini roll; for lunch I had pizza; for dinner I had spaghetti in a tomatoe sauce with parmesan, mushrooms, olives, and peppers; for my healthy snack I had pumpkin seeds. Not to much different than the day before. However, I ate a several unhealthy snacks including chai cake and mustard won ton chips. I also only got in a 15 minute walk instead of the 30 minutes of exercise I need.

For breakfast yesterday, I had a fried egg sandwich with mozzarella and cheddar on a toasted focaccini roll; for lunch i had spaghetti in a tomatoe sauce with parmesan, mushrooms, olives, and peppers; for dinner I had pizza. For my healthy snack I had pumpkin seeds. I while eating the pumpkin seeds, I devoured some olive tapenade on mini toasts – which really brought it into a more mealsworth of food. Additionally, my walk was far short of the half hour mark for exercise.

Not bad, but not quite there.

For breakfast yesterday I had a veggie burger with basil mozzarella cheese and barbecue sauce; for lunch I had pizza balls with basil mozzarella, faux ham, and faux turkey topped with parmesan cheese; for dinner I had spaghetti in pizza sauce with parmesan cheese; for my healthy snack I had cashews.

Food went well, but I only got half of my half hour of exercise in with a walk up to Arlington Center and back in last evening's thunderstorm. Getting in my exercise is going to be hard right now because I've been having lots of wobbly/dizzy/fally/seizurey/whatever-the-hell-who-knows-the-doctors-apparently-don't episodes, but I will not let that be an excuse. I will continue to try to make Project Three Meals work. I refuse to let this crap control my life.

For breakfast I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with peppers and parmesan cheese, for lunch I had paneer butter masala with rice, for dinner I had two slices of faux chipotle sausage pizza with basil mozzarella baked on a garlic and herb crust, and for my healthy snack I had pumpkin seeds.

I was sitting on my desk, spaced out, and before I could realizes what I was doing I had eaten a significant number of peanut chews. Having already foiled my day, I opted to have cookies later on when offered and I didn't get any exercise.

I know the reasoning "I already screwed up, what the hell?" isn't the best and that I should strive to get as close as I can regardless of how well the rest of the day went. But I had already screwed up, so what the hell. Great "logic', eh? I'll do better and I intend to win the wager.

Yesterday, for breakfast I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with mushrooms, peppers, and parmesan cheese; for lunch I had baby corn, mushrooms, and gluten marinated in soy sauce, fried, and placed on top of sesame thyme flatbread; for dinner I had pizza, for my healthy snack I had wasabi peas. I got in a 30 minute walk in the morning and another 20 minute walk in the evening, easily meeting my exercise quota.

3 successful days.

For breakfast yesterday I had spaghetti in garlic and olive oil, for lunch I had Spanish rice with faux pork, for my healthy snack I had a pickle. zarthon took purpleglitter and me out to Vinny T's in Lexington for dinner, where we got fried ravioli as our appetizer and I had eggplant parmesan with spaghetti for my entrée.

I got my exercise in the morning in the form of a walk. I really getting into the morning walk thing, it's nice to get out and about before the heat of the day sets in.

Close, but no cigar. For breakfast I had spaghetti with butter and parmesan, for lunch I had chole kulcha with naan, for dinner I had pizza, and for my healthy snack I had a pickle. I also got in my 30 minutes of exercise. One 50¢ roll of mini-donuts was all that stood in the way of me and success.

For breakfast yesterday I had spaghetti with tomatoe sauce, mushrooms, and parmesan cheese; for lunch I had spaghetti o's, for dinner I had paneer makhani with rice, for my health snack I had a pickle. I didn't repeat Wednesday's success because i had a bowl of ice cream and didn't get any exercise.

Food perfect. For breakfast I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with spinach and parmesan cheese; for lunch I had Spanish rice with faux pork; for dinner zarthon took me out to Rudy's where I had enchiladas verdes, chili con queso, and jalapeño poppers; for my healthy snack I had a caffeinated cliff bar. I wanted to walk home from Rudy's for my exercise, but both zarthon and purpleglitter were very much against the idea because of the number of spells I've been having lately. They insisted I ride home with them, which I did. Sooner or later I'm just going to have to say fuck it and get in my exercise regardless of the spells. I have to live my life, and that means taking risks.

The food part went perfectly: For breakfast I had spaghetti covered in tomatoe sauce with green and black olives, mushrooms, and parmesan cheese; for lunch I had a vegetable pakoras and samosas, for dinner I had a veggie burger and fries, and for my health snack i had nicoises olives. However, I didn't get any exercise and that is the area I need most to work on at this point.

For breakfast I had pizza, for lunch an egg and cheese on an everything bagel, for dinner spaghetti in a tomatoe sauce with green and black olives and parmesan cheese, and a pickle for my healthy snack. Would have been a perfect day if I had gotten my 30 minutes of exercise in. A definite improvement from yesterday, but not quite there yet.

Did slightly better yesterday, but only by chance. Got in 15 minutes of exercise looking for Arlington Town Day, half of my 30 minutes but better than none. Snacking was still a problem. I had two healthy snacks (a strip of granny smith fruit leather and a jonamac apple), one okay snack (a handful of dry Cinnamon Toast Crunch), and one unhealthy snack (a Russell Stoffers caramel crunch candy bar). Mealwise, I had a microwave pizza for breakfast; chole kulcha with naan for lunch; and spaghetti mixed with nutrela, mushrooms, baby corn, broccoli, artichoke hearts, peppers, and other assorted yummies sautéed with olive oil, miso, dill, and seaweed for dinner.

My consistent failure in the snacking and exercise areas are getting a bit embarrassing. I really need to get into gear. I can do this.

I had home seasoned ramen for breakfast, 2 tubes of peanuts for lunch, spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with mushrooms and parmesan cheese for dinner, and half an orange for my healthy snack. I also got in 30 minutes of walking. However I ate a bag of hot crunchy cheese bible curls, which threw my day plan off. I know I should be eating more fiber, but I can't really afford it. I'll do better tomorrow.

i had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with mushrooms and parmesan cheese for breakfast
macaroni and cheese for lunch
cheese enchiladas for dinner
no healthy snack
no exercise
and i ate most of a large popcorn while watching finding neverland
i'm not doing very well at project three meals
i can't give up
my endocrinologist warned me about diabetes
i've really gotta watch it
i feel like such a failure
i can't seem to do it
i really want to, but i have no willpower
i hate myself
i can't take care of myself
fuck me