For breakfast I had creamy parmesan noodles, for lunch I had eggs and hashbrowns, for my healthy snack I had a mandarin and a sugar-free popsicle. I got in well over an hour of exercise walking from my place to merryperseis's place and back.

I would have made, except that my dinner wasn't exactly reasonable. I went to Rudy's with purpleglitter, zarthon, and Jeff. I ended up eating chili con queso, a jalapeño poppers, and a bean & cheese burrito. The popper and burrito would have been fine &ndash but the chips and chili con queso were not only too much, it's hard not to categorize them as junk food.

For breakfast yesterday I had pizza; for lunch I had spaghetti o's with monterey jack cheese; for dinner I had spinach and ricotta stuffed ravioli in a tomatoe sauce with parmesan and green and black olives; for my first healthy snack I had spicy peanuts; for my second healthy snack I had chips and salsa - wait, that's not a healthy snack and neither was the salt and vinegar potatoe chips I had shortly after. Add in not meeting my exercise quota and I need to do better.

Yesterday, for breakfast I had tomatoe soup with parmesan cheese; for lunch I had paneer tikka masala wrapped in a tortilla; for dinner I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with mushrooms, peppers, and parmesan cheese; for my first healthy snack I had peanuts; for my second healthy snack I had pumpkin seeds. I got in a good hour long walk around Arlington.

I would have made it, however I foiled myself first thing yesterday morning. Before I was awake enough to remember I was starting Project Five, I started gnawing on some thai barbecue tortilla chips.

Yesterday for breakfast I had a packet of Good vermicelli, for lunch I had sushi, for dinner I had enchiladas verdes, for my healthy snack I had cantaloupe. I surrounding dinner I had chili con queso and fried ice cream, which is outside the project. I did get in my exercise though, in the form of a three hour walk in the morning and two 15 minute walks later in the day.

This has been my 15^th attempt at Project Three Meals, and I'm really starting to grow tired of it. Burnt out. I can't say that I won't try to start it up again, but there have been numerous suggestions by numerous people online and off about what might be wrong with the project concept. Perhaps I will tweak it, perhaps I'll modify it into another project, perhaps I just won't.

Where I am going is not so much determined by what my body eats, but instead by what my mind eats. I need to worry about the former less and the latter more.

For breakfast I had grilled cheese (muenster on Ezekiel 4:9) with half a pickle, for lunch I had rotini in tomatoe sauce with parmesan cheese, for dinner I had a veggie burger with fries, I had no healthy snack. I did get in my exercise quota for the day with my walks. In the early evening, my mood dipped down pretty low and I binged on greasy popcorn and chips and salsa.

Low moods often spell trouble for Project Three Meals, because when I'm in a low mood I often cease to care about Project Three Meals and sometimes even sabotage the project on purpose as a form of "self-destruction". This form of self destruction is very minor compared to some of the things I have done in the past. Perhaps having this self-destructive outlet actually helps keep me away from the more damaging self-destructive behaviours, being relatively innocuous outlet for those urges. My failures may actually be improvements.

I made my most funnest birdy food mix yet! I started with apple carrot harvest Beak Appétit, then added three kinds of seed mixes, a vitamin mix, two kinds of millet, organic smashed peas, fresh organic carrot tops, fresh organic carrot bottoms, organic flax tortilla chips, Ezekiel 4:9 bread, and organic spring salad mix. I hope they like it.

Food perfect. For breakfast I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with spinach and parmesan cheese; for lunch I had Spanish rice with faux pork; for dinner zarthon took me out to Rudy's where I had enchiladas verdes, chili con queso, and jalapeño poppers; for my healthy snack I had a caffeinated cliff bar. I wanted to walk home from Rudy's for my exercise, but both zarthon and purpleglitter were very much against the idea because of the number of spells I've been having lately. They insisted I ride home with them, which I did. Sooner or later I'm just going to have to say fuck it and get in my exercise regardless of the spells. I have to live my life, and that means taking risks.

Didn't do so well again at Project Three Meals today, but i keep going. I had pizza for breakfast, For lunch I had gluten, mushrooms, and baby corn marinated in soy sauce then stir fried. For my healthy snack I had a pickle. zarthon took purpleglitter and me out to Rudy's for dinner where I had chili con queso, enchiladas verdes, and fried ice cream. I also had a cry baby italian ice from the Ice Stand by Spy Pond.

I didn't get any exercise of note in. Exercise has proved to be a difficult issue because I've been having more issues with dizziness or whatever the hell these spells are where I get twitchy and have difficulty walking. They got better for a while, but seem to be waxing again. Nothing near what they were at their peak last winter and it's not really a good excuse for not getting my exercise in, but it is a mental deterrent to doing so. I need to just fucking go out and take my walks.

I can do better. I will do better.

Not a good start, but I'm determined to make this attempt work.

For breakfast I had faux duck ramen, for lunch I split an egg salad sub with purpleglitter, for dinner I had sloppy joes, and for my healthy snack I had soy jerky. However I ate a bunch of sixlets as well as way too much chips and salsa. I didn't get any exercise too boot. Tomorrow's another day and I will do better.

Yesterday, I ate spaghetti o's with a slice of american cheese for breakfast, 2 veggie burgers for lunch, shells in garlicy parmesan & romano sauce for dinner, and a mango as my healthy snack. I however had a small amount of chips and salsa and didn't get any exercise, so didn't quite make it. While Project Three Meals isn't about 100% success, I can do better and will try to do better today.

Need coffee now.

Yesterday was completely off. I didn't get any exercise. I didn't eat anything until 11pm, at which point I ate a large amount of vegetable tortilla chips and salsa and a small microwave pizza. A couple hours later I cooked up some roasted potatoes. My mood can really effect my eating habits, and yesterday I was really down for most of the day. When I'm that down I usually either overeat or don't eat at all, neither of which is following Project Three Meals.

I had spaghetti in tomatoe sauce with mushrooms and parmesan cheese for breakfast, Spanish rice for lunch, chips and salsa for dinner, and half an orange for my healthy snack. i didn't get any exercise in and i don't believe my dinner is what one would consider reasonable. oh well.

I didn't do very well today. I started out well: a bowl of corn for breakfast, a bowl of beans and tofu pups for lunch, stuffed peppers for dinner, and almonds for my healthy snack. However I continued to eat. I consumed 5 frozen french toast strips, two popsicles, and 2 large wintergreen LifeSavers. It didn't stop there. zarthon took me out to Rudy's for yet more food. I ate chili con queso and an enchilada verde. Regardless of my eating outside my plan, I had a good day. I'm not going to kick myself for not sticking to the plan, i'm going to simply breath in and give it my best attempt tomorrow.

I missed my pdoc appointment. I had prodded a very tired purpleglitter out of bed to drive me. I thought it was at 11:15am, but it was actually at 10:15am. I am just really bad at making appointments. To punish myself for bothering purpleglitter and still missing my appointment, I bought some chips and some hot salsa. I bought hot salsa because I know hot salsa is sucky to purge. When mixed with stomach acids, It burns the back of the mouth painfully. I wanted it to be an unpleasant purging experience, because I did it to punish myself. So I ate the chips and salsa and purged them. I really needed to do something self-destructive. I hate myself.

We had a wonder thunderstorm. Marvelous lightning. I ended up falling asleep during the storm. I slept for about 7 hours.

My shoulder and neck still hurt. I'm now worried if one the alters bruised it while I wasn't there.

Had some chips and salsa with raspberry ginger ale.

The Lesbian Avengers are having a "back to school" shopping visibility event at the Cambridgeside Galleria today at 1pm. If I'm up (who knows), I want to go.