For breakfast yesterday I had rotini and faux italian sausage in a jalapeño jack sauce; for lunch I had a veggie burger with cheddar; for dinner I had french bread pizza topped with faux italian sausage; for my first healthy snack I had a clementine; for my second healthy snack I had pumpkin seeds.

I got in plenty of exercise with a non-direct cigar walk to Stop & Shop.

Success.

Ugh. For breakfast I had masala ramen, for lunch I had two servings of bhindi masala on red cargo rice (one would have been a reasonable meal), for dinner I had a veggie burger. I had nothing that would be considered a healthy snack. Around 1am I stir fried up soy sauce marinated gluten, peanuts, and baby corn. I also had some cookies and got no exercise. Ah well, so be it. I'm still going to keep trying.

For breakfast I had grilled cheese (muenster on Ezekiel 4:9) with half a pickle, for lunch I had rotini in tomatoe sauce with parmesan cheese, for dinner I had a veggie burger with fries, I had no healthy snack. I did get in my exercise quota for the day with my walks. In the early evening, my mood dipped down pretty low and I binged on greasy popcorn and chips and salsa.

Low moods often spell trouble for Project Three Meals, because when I'm in a low mood I often cease to care about Project Three Meals and sometimes even sabotage the project on purpose as a form of "self-destruction". This form of self destruction is very minor compared to some of the things I have done in the past. Perhaps having this self-destructive outlet actually helps keep me away from the more damaging self-destructive behaviours, being relatively innocuous outlet for those urges. My failures may actually be improvements.

For breakfast I had rotini primavera in tomatoe sauce with mushrooms and parmesan cheese; for lunch I had faux lamb, baby corn, and potatoes in caramelized soy sauce and hot red chili oil; for dinner I had a veggie burger with fries; and for my healthy snack I had a pickle. I got in well over 30 minutes of exercise in a morning quasipseudorandom walk around Arlington. Success on the first day, pretty good!

I know it's a bit late in the day for this post, but here goes. Yesterday I had spaghetti o's topped with mozzarella for breakfast, mac and cheese with black beans for lunch, a veggie burger with fries for dinner. I had a pickle for my healthy snack. I also ate a cookie and didn't fulfil my exercise quota.

I have been considering giving up on Project Three Meals, but I think I'll keep going for now.

The food part went perfectly: For breakfast I had spaghetti covered in tomatoe sauce with green and black olives, mushrooms, and parmesan cheese; for lunch I had a vegetable pakoras and samosas, for dinner I had a veggie burger and fries, and for my health snack i had nicoises olives. However, I didn't get any exercise and that is the area I need most to work on at this point.

Yesterday, I ate spaghetti o's with a slice of american cheese for breakfast, 2 veggie burgers for lunch, shells in garlicy parmesan & romano sauce for dinner, and a mango as my healthy snack. I however had a small amount of chips and salsa and didn't get any exercise, so didn't quite make it. While Project Three Meals isn't about 100% success, I can do better and will try to do better today.

Need coffee now.

Thursday, zarthon took purpleglitter and I to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Michelle, Howard, and Alex. I had little doubt that it would be amazing with the combination of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton. Depp was truly unique as Willy Wonka, with a very grown-up child performance. Something was definitely amiss in Willy's brain, and I like that. Crazy is good, and positive crazy characters are even better. I've never seen the 1972 adaptation with Gene Wilder, I have read Roald Dahl's book so I already knew the general plot.

After the movie, the six of us went to dinner at Bennigans. The veggie burger there was so realistic that I thought they had actually gave me a meaty burger. But, zarthon (an avid meat aficionado) tasted the burger and assured me that it was most definitely not meat. I was still a bit hesitant to eat it, but I was hungry and trusted zarthon's meat tasting abilities.

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scattermew came over to the house_of_clocks today. We hung out in my room watching the light show in the sky. A house across the street got nailed. It was actually the building that houses the electrology office that I had some work done at in 1999. I never ended up getting the whole job done, only about 20% of it. But that is a tangent.

In the middle of the storm we decided to walk to the Chai Café. We stopped briefly in front of Video Horizons, where scattermew hid under the overhang. I stood between the street and the sidewalk and held the umbrella as high I as could yelling "lightning!". The pole in the umbrella is metal, but not 10 feet long, so I it really wasn't quite the right tool for the Ten Foot Metal Pole Dance.

At the chai café I had Chole Kulcha and a Limca, my usual. It was as usual, quite good.

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This evening purpleglitter and I went to the Super 88. It's a large Asian supermarket in at the South Bay Plaza in Boston about a half hour drive from the house_of_clocks. Unfortunately, when we got back to Arlington, I realized that I forgot my pocketbook in my carriage. We had to drive all the way back to get it, causing purpleglitter to miss all her Sunday shows. I'm always making stupid mistakes like that.

I almost made it today. I had 2 soft boiled eggs for breakfast, Mac & Cheese for lunch, and raisins for my healthy snack. But for dinner I had a Burger King veggie burger with fries with dicotomygrrl. It would have been a reasonable meal if I skipped the fries. I also didn't do my half hour of exersize. I need to do better tomorrow.

I ate two veggie burgers for dinner. After eating them, I felt as if I had eaten too much. I know logically that it wasn't, but I was really tempted to purge. Too keep my mind of purging, I watched some TV. After watching TV, I exercised to relieve the rest of the guilt feelings. I know I still need to work on my body image problems, but at least I stopped myself from purging. It's a start.

The purging has really gotten out of hand the last few days. I purged five times yesterday. None today. It's hard, but I'm going to quit.