A graphical representation of what you think your soul would look like if it were an existing entity around your house.



My sister (ellynx) got me this oil lamp so long ago that i do not remember precisely when anymore. It's quite fragile and has been a lot of places and seen a lot of things. Most objects I owned back when I got this have been lost to the wind and much sturdier things had crumbled. It's had it's share of close calls, but somehow the winds not yet been able to break it.

I'd like to think everyone who helped me with the traslation. It was very helpful. If any of you want me to make you a custom icon or send you a wish pod or something, just ask.

Wish pods are specially gathered water caltrops, often called water chestnuts. In order to be wish pods, they must be found floating in the water, not washed ashore. Also when gathering wish pods, one pod must be returned to a body of fresh water different from the one the pods were gathered from, with the blessing "Good Journey."

Once properly gathered, wish pods are generally painted. Although this is not necessary for wishes, painting helps harmonize the luck of the pod. Wish pods always bring good luck, but bring the best luck if received as a gift.

To use the wish pod, place it in the room you spend the most time in. When you place your wish pod in the room, state your wish under your breath three times. No one else should hear your wish. Remember: the bigger the wish, the longer it will take to be fulfilled.

Placement in the room is important. Place the wish pod in the area of the room that most corresponds to your wish:

North — if you wish for money or material items. East —- if you wish to better understand something or someone, or are wishing for knowledge or enlightenment. South — if you wish for change. West — if you wish for love or a closer relationship with loved ones. Center — if you wish for balance, harmony or peace.

I want to start painting and giving away wish pods again. I've given a few away recently, but that has been the more the exception than the rule. In order to start giving them away more regularly, I need to build up a supply again, as most of the one's I painted were given away long ago.

I had a very nice walk today. I started off at the house_of_clocks. I wasn't intending to walk, I was just sitting on the porch killing time waiting for purpleglitter to pick me up in about 45 minutes. I lit up one of the Romeo y Julietas that Christian gave me, and took off.

I went down to Spy Pond, walking past the sundrenched flower gardens by the sidewalk. I turned onto the park path, which I haven't actually done since the park was reopened. I have to admit the park improvements look nice and there were plenty of geese pecking at the grass on either side the path - as there should be.

Sitting alone on a rock by the path there was a grey-haired woman singing. Her song was in perfect harmony with the shining pond and trees. I stood there and listened and looked out over the pond. I gave her a wish pod before I continued on in my journey.

I walked under the bridge, and back to Mass Ave, then back home. The walk put me in one of the best moods I've had in some time. purpleglitter soon picked me up for travels to Home Depot and the Chai Café and here I am still glowing from a perfect walk.

purpleglitter's landlord destroyed Aleister, the hollow tree we buried Isobel in. The scattered pieces of Aleister were strewn about the ground in front of the back fence.

purpleglitter pulled her car up to it so that we could use the headlights to see while we sifted through the rubble for the box we buried Isobel in. I found it scattered amongst the remains of Aleister. The box had opened, the millet and the wish pod still inside. I found Isobel in her shroud nearby.

I dug the detritus out of the box and place Isobel back in. Afterward, we drove around trying to decide what to do.

Isobel is on the back porch now, we will rebury her tomorrow.

We placed Isobel in a small chest-shaped box that I've had for some time with a spray of millet and a wish pod. purpleglitter played Amazing Graze on the violin. After she was done playing we went down and laid Isobel to rest in the hollow tree out back that has come to be known as Aleister.

Good journey, Isobel.

Unicorn Books may be interested in buying my geodes. I'm very excited. I have 5 or 6 in my closet. I hadn't intended on selling them when I brought them back from Missouri several years ago, instead I had planned them to be gifts for friends. I never got around to giving many of them away though and right now I could really use the money. They are unopened, and who knows what the quartz crystals are like inside. The unopened nature seems to have appealed to the person I talked to at Unicorn Books. I don't know how much money they'll give me for them, but any amount I can get for them will help right now. I also discussed wish pods and my ouija boards with them, trying to figure out if they'd be interested in any of my crafts as well. They didn't seem to interested in those items, which are more renewable than my supply of geodes. I am going back Thursday with one of the geodes to show them.

I just painted 20 wish pods. I'll be able to start handing them out again to people I meet. I miss doing that. It was my signature in a way. It will be again.

Earlier tonight, purpleglitter and I went to CVS. On the way there we saw a cat the had been hit by a car. I had purpleglitter stop the car. I got out and dragged the cat to the sidewalk so it wouldn't continue getting hit. I pet it and left a wish pod with it. I forgot to say the blessing "good journey" at the time, but I say it now. "Good journey, cat".

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I just got back from a wonderful walk with merryperseis. We spent an hour and a half wandering around the silent streets of Arlington. I've grown quite accustom to taking these walks and am glad when I have company. The silence. The cycles of the day. The details. Everything interests me in the heart of the night.

I was released at noon Thursday. purpleglitter picked me up and took me out for Indian food. I was very glad to see her and be wandering about again. We bounced around town a little bit, then headed to the house_of_clocks.

A couple hours after we arrived at the house_of_clocks, merryperseis came home. With her, she brought Indian food. We all ate what she had brought and sat in the kitchen and talked. It was very good to be able to hug her without getting squawked at by the nurses.

I had been planning on getting drunk Thursday night, but I changed my mind. I simply had one drink and crazymaureen came over. Her, purpleglitter, pillowkisser and I sat in the livingroom and talked. crazymaureen brought even more Indian food. I guess I'm well known for liking it.

I had forgotten why I liked spending time with crazymaureen, it's been so long. But, now I remember. There's something about her energy. She's unique and herself, and not afraid to be so. She's made some mistakes, true, but I she means well. Old friends are good.

purpleglitter spent the night. Someone to cuddle in with on the first night home. I very much liked that. Warm against the cold outside.

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Yesterday was my first day at the partial. I arrived late because I didn't realize I was going to actually go until after 9:00am. I had many panic attacks during the program, but all in all I'm glad I went. There are 2 people there that were there last time I went. One never left and the other has returned like me. I'll be heading back Monday.

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pillowkisser and I met bathofblood and ms_brass at the Diesel Café. I was having a good time, but unfortunately had a very bad panic attack and had to leave early.

pillowkisser forgot her hat, so we returned to get it. Back at the Diesel, charliegrrrl invited us to attend the polyamory circle, which was meeting in the back. We did, and met several interesting people, several of whom I gave wish pods to. After about an hour, we decided we ought to be heading back home, so excused ourselves and left.

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Back at home, pillowkisser, merryperseis and I congregated in my room. merryperseis and I had drinks while the three of us listened to music and talked. We had a very merry time, and around 2:00am pillowkisser went back to her room and merryperseis and I fell asleep in each other's arms.

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At some point today, I plan on posting much about the experience of my recent hospitalization.

Chimed in the new year with merryperseis and purpleglitter at the Warehouse 23 New Years Party. I spent a lot of time talking with cobweb, one of the hosts and someone that I didn't see nearly enough of in 2002. Hopefully, we'll rectify that in 2003.

Warehouse 23 is incredible. A maze of passages and rooms. Trippy electronic lighting effect. Parachute tentrooms. Mirrors and blacklights. Obviously took a lot of effort, skill, and creativity to set up. Amazing, simply amazing. I could happily spend days just exploring the place.

On the chime of midnight I got kisses from both purpleglitter and merryperseis. I couldn't ask for a better way to start the year.

I gave away my first wish pods of the year to some of the various party goers and over the course of the night and acquired a sequined sparkly strip of fabric in my hair. All-in-all I had a wonderful time and am looking forward to 2003 being better than 2002.

I met a new friend at the Diesel Café today. dacookiemonster. I wish I had had a wish pod to give her. I haven't restocked my purse since my last hospitalization. Most inpatient psych facilities dislike wish pods, because of their sharp points.

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Visited riga_mortia at Cambridge Hospital for what will hopefully be the last time. She's getting out tomorrow. I'm going to excited to see her in the real world again!

Tuesday, September 17^th, all are invited to my playroom in the house_of_clocks to paint wish pods. Wish pods and some paint will be provided, and you get to keep all the wish pods you paint. Fun starts around 7:00pm, but come a bit later if you want to. If you need directions, email me at wishpodpaint@neitherday.com.

purpleglitter and I went to a party at Sinister House. I got to see my old friend Mitzi, whom I had not seen in quite some time. I have missed her greatly.

I also saw missclover. I have had some issues with missclover in the past, however I think we worked a lot out between us. I still like her very much, and it hurts that I don't know if we'll ever be as close friends as we once were. Regardless, I do very much look forward to renewing a friendship with her.

At one point, there was a large discussion of LiveJournal, but I wasn't able to get everybody's username, as I forgot to bring my pen.

I met many new and exciting people at the party and gave out a great many wish pods. I'm actually starting to run low on my supply of wish pods, and need to go out and gather more. I used to have two large jars of wish pods. Now, the last jar is nearing the bottom.

grrldan came over today. He lives down the street, so it was a very short trip. I made him my curried tomatoe mozzarella alphabet soup

After soup, went to the Prickly Pond. Today was just to unbelievably beautiful to stay inside.

When we got to the Prickly Pond, I noticed there were no marigold blooming over Nu-Nu's grave. It made me sad. I will have to go plant some later this week.

There, however, were thousands of water caltrops washed onto the shore. I saw none in the water, which is unfortunate, as they are only truly wish pods when found in floating in the water. Apparently they were stranded on shore as the water level slowly dropped. The water was lower than I've ever seen it. grrldan had never seen water caltrops in there natural, unpainted state, so he took one home.

We swang on the swings nearby the Prickly Pond. That was fun. The Prickly Pond was very beautiful today.

Some day in the near future, I would very much like to show him the Great Meadow. I think he would very much like it there.

This morning I called around trying to find free (or at least sliding scale) mental health services. I found one in Arlington (after calling around different mental health agencies). I called, and the secretary told me that everyone was in a meeting and they'd call me back.

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Around, 1:30, neodarkling came over. I'd met her briefly at the Diesel Café, just long enough for her to comment she liked my shoes and me to give her a wish pod. We found each other online through feline's journal.

Apparently she and I have some similar tastes in music. She is also one of the few people I have met outside of Columbia, MO that has heard of Odor of Pears.

Nothing like romping through the forest in crimson satin pajamas and a wonderfully flowing matching silk bathrobe! We went to the Great Meadow, only to find the path to the stepping stones was flooded. Without getting to the stepping stones, there is no way cross the Bog of Eternal Stench and get to the Magik Pond.

We walked around the accessible area of the Great Meadow for a while than headed back to my house. I was very very talkative today. Talk talk talk! I just couldn't shut up. Recanting past adventures.

Upon arriving back home, she left. Right before she left, I told her, "There's something important I don't know about you: your name". She mentioned she didn't know my name either. It was something that had simply never came up. Neither of us had ever asked. We then traded names in a introduction-type fassion

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I noticed that the Arlington Mental Health Clinic had never called me back, so I called them. The secretary said that the person who makes the initial calls was making her calls right then. About two minutes later, I got the call. Things went well at first. But towards the end of the conversation, I wasn't so sure I really wanted to deal with these people. I asked if anyone there had any training or experience with multiples. She answered "no." I explained that I wasn't sure if I wanted to let someone who didn't know what they were doing mess with our delicate balance. She told me, very snidely, that I could wait until I get MassHealth and try to find a better place. She told me that she would call me back later tonight, to see if I had made a decision as to if I really wanted help.

We've had mental health people who don't know how to deal with multiples simply make things worse. And, I don't think it would be helpful to see such a person. I was stressed out and went to bed.

Around 7:00 I woke up. purpleglitter suggested to me that I should ask them to help with issues like eating problems and cutting, and to leave everything else alone. At first this sounded like a great idea. And almost immediately after her suggestion, the person from the clinic called back. I asked her if that was possible. She answered that I could make such a request to whatever therapist I ended up being assigned to. I went ahead and made an appointment with intake Tuesday morning, and I should be able to start therapy within a couple weeks.

After the phone call, I realized that the eating problems and the cutting are tied into multiplicity issues. There's no real way to separate them. So, trying to deal with one exclusively seems like a futile prospect. That leads us back to the inept therapist screwing up what balance and stability we have left. I can't risk it. It's just not worth it.

A psychic reader named Tiffany has set up shop across from Scrubby Bubbles, the local laundromat here in Arlington Heights. As my clothes were drying I hopped across the street to Readings by Tiffany to get prices for a couples reading, as I thought it might be neat for purpleglitter and I to try out sometime. Her prices were a bit exorbitant, however as a thank you for her time, I gave her a wish pod. I thought that she, as a psychic, would appreciate it. Back at the laundromat, while I was watching my clothes fly in circles in the machines, her husband, who I had yet to meet, comes in and gives me the wish pod back. He had an extremely worried look on his face. After he left, I looked at her card, not only is she Christian (which I can deal with), she's preachy. She must have figured I was an evil satanic lesbian witch trying to put a curse on her. So much for her psychic powers.